"Did I ready enough to start it???" This question was always come up to my mind when I suddenly thought that in the next two month I will get married*_*. Maybe for the girl who have the same age as me think it is not a big deal, but for me getting married in this condition…is… so absurd… I can’t state it clearly because it happens too fast and really unpredictable.
During my relationship with him (of course my beloved fiancé) which started in 24 of April 2007, we almost never to talk about “marriage”, I didn’t said “never” because it happened really seldom. Some times I hear form my girl friends that they had planned or maybe just shared their marriage life with their boy such how many child they should have, what the role for husband and wife when they married, or just starting to call each other “ayah” and “bunda”, those things absolutely never happen in my relationship, while the reasons are besides because that’s not our style, we also afraid it won’t happen in the reality. Unfortunately the story of my love increase faster than my imagination about it, then by that time I really feel that life was totally unpredictable.
Every woman of course desire to have a serious relationship which ended by marriage, the same as me, I was feel so glad know that my family and his family meet together and arrange the marriage, it will be held on 2 and 3 of July( Insyaallah). But the gladness was happened only in the first month after the engagement, in several months the bizarre feeling was come to me, and I suddenly think “did I ready to get marriage?” with the whole consequence come up to me. Then gladness and worries mixed. I keep on asking my fiancé “are we ready to make this decision??” and he simply answered “yes, we are” without any strong statement to make me feel better. It was his characteristic “careless” and I totally known it.
Furthermore, we start to do the things that we should do before the day, such budgeting, make the invitation, the dress, and many others with joyful to less the pressure and the worries. I believe marriage is the things that we shouldn’t afraid what will happen after we get married. It was a huge step in my life with a lot of gratitude I wish I able to face every problem in it. God bless me…
